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kadang saya kureng faham why is it happen.. internal problems should be solved among internal members.. tetapi, tiada sebarang tindakan walau sebesar zarah selepas aduan dibuat pada pihak pentadbir hingga orang luar terpaksa interrupt baru kalut nak setel the problems.. hurm...saya risau jugak kalau ada pihak yang salah faham dengan saya.. but what choices do i have???

sesuatu perkara penting boleh jadi expired bila dah terlalu lama dibiarkan.. macam kita beli makanan.. agak2 nak expired pun kita dah taknak beli.. kan? tambah2 bila menda dah basi.. atau mereka menunggu hingga terjadi situasi 'dah terhantuk baru nak terngadah' baru tindakan tegas nak diambil..? ntahlah.. part ni yang aku tak berapa nak paham..

alhamdulillah.. my case was half-ly solved.. so far i'm quite satisfied with the process.. yela, kalau nak ikut amarah aku yang cepat panas ni, mmgla aku rasa tak bbaloi sumer ni.. ni kira jenayah beb! but sometimes we need to balance n adapt ourselves with so-called procedures yang tah hape2 tu.. lagipun aku memang berpegang dgn ayat ni - what goes around will comes around.. hari ini hari dia.. mana tahu esok hari aku.. what can i do is redha and let my anger dissapear by giving forgiveness.. let bygone be bygone... hope everything will goes well tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow... (sila baca dalam nada ayat bergema, plz yeh! hehe!)

right now, my worries are channeled to other things.. thinking about what other people gonna said to me after the action hav been taken.. what the perceptions that i'll get from pentadbir side.. will i gonna be a 'red-spot' teacher among the otai's of SMKL? will anyone afraid to get closed to me after knowing what i've done to pentadbir? or, they will gonna to transferred me to other school since they think i'm too big-headed??? **aku lebih suka jika ditukarkan skolah actually! hehe!

i already tried the best to get the attention of pentadbir side to support me handling the case.. but unfortunately, i didnt get any feedback... things are going to be lame n people there are always busy with APC, JUSA, bla.. bla.. bla... tapi bab nak membentuk disiplin budak? hurm.. kalo dapat anugerah ape skalipun, harap kat dokumentasi je bagus.. tp realitinya? tu ke dorang cari?

saya tahu, there will be misunderstanding among the rakan seangkatan saya on how i handle this case.. i'm so eager to know what they are thinking... n i hope there will be someone, somebody, could listen the voices of my heart n understood - why i'm doing such things.. everything happens got reasons..

p/s: saya mendoakan murid2 tersebut mendapat petunjuk n hidayah dan segera berubah ke arah kebaikan...