the 'second chance'

arini cuti... n feel bored.. lot of tasks to do.. but cannot resist from FB n the blogs! after i'm done with the online shopping (sempat rembat 1, 2 brg!), rasa nak update blog la pulak... hihi!

every one of us must hav a dark history of ourselves.. but as long as they realize that he/she have done wrong and BERTAUBAT, i think why he/she deserves to give a second chance..

mmg org yg btudung litup tak semestinya MULIA dari org yg tak pakai tudung.. saya ada ramai kawan yg pakai tudung (samada btudug labuh or nampak sket jambul) n kawan yg tidak bertudung.. n i found most of them is not a "JAHAT" person... they stil can make a gud frens.. even a few of them are my best buddies!!! i hav no prob with that..

i bet all of us have heard a habit of 'free sex' by university students.. a lady involved in porns zines or vids or website.. n i'm sure all of us have heard bout gud wifs married with bad husbands or vice versa.. ('bad' in terms of curang).. kelahiran anak luar nikah... etc... n sadly, they'd told those stories to their 'trusted frens' (kononnya)... n at last, sume ni memakan diri...

i bukan nak bercerita tentang those things.. cuma terfikir sejenak.. saya sendiri bukanlah org yg alim or baiiiikkkk bangat... tp utk renungan sendiri n i would like to share with others.. mmgla susah nak terima org yg ada dark history esp menda tu melibatkan diri kita sendiri.. cube kita fikirkan... if one day perkara ni terjadi pada diri sendiri.. n kita dah betul2 insaf.. n want to fix all the things back sbb dah rasa btul2 guilty... kita akan ckp, why they couldnt give me a second chance..???

hurm...

susah kan? esp when no supports from the beloved family or our loved ones.. try to change n starts a new life and at the same time the 'history' stil haunted the people around us.. n lebih memilukan if there is someone else yg menyebarkan 'the history'... sedangkan pada ms itu the person cuba mengumpul kekuatan to face his/her life... it is tru the person have done something wrong.. a very bad wrong! even if we could not forgive n forget their 'history', tak perlulah nak menceritakan aib org pada org lain.. bygkan one day blaku pada diri sendiri or anak kita or anyone that we love.....?

saya sendiri pernah cuba memaafkan n melupakan perbuatan seseorg yg saya anggap as a back stabber.. surprisingly, kesalahan yg sama diulang berulang kali..!!! till now saya memaksa diri saya utk menerima n memaafkannya.. n saya tau betapa perit n payahnya nak terima balik the person in our life after all the things that the person done... tp semakin lama, hari demi hari... waktu demi waktu... saya dpt juga terima the person wpun blm sepenuhnya.. n saya cuba renungkan kembali, dia dah cuba sedaya upaya utk berubah.. nape till now saya masih teringat citer lama?

mm... let bygone be bygone...

i wish that one day there is an empty space in my heart to love the person as much as i loved the others.. n saya harap, kesalahan saya pada org lain juga dpt dimaafkan n saya diberi peluang kedua utk baiki keadaan.. yg salah tetap salah.. but everything wil be okay selagi kita sedar kesalahan kita n menerima teguran org lain seadanya.. perkara yg dilarang AGAMA harus dielakkan n it will b better if kita bertaubat... Insyaallah, a better life wil wait for us then...